I put my feet in the water..

Their so called "freedom" was actually not fully free, because once a creation is here, its here, it's not going anywhere. We have to sort it out so that it spins the way its supposed to spin. In accordance to all the laws of physical Life. Today, I was at the beach, the sun was gasing. I went down to the sea I placed my feet in the water, felt it, equal and one.. then I sat down on a rock. With my feet in the water, getting the feel of M.E. Then what came into my awareness was the following.. This water is the same water that recently has been "hit" by two major incidents. The big oil spill & the tsunami, hence nuclear shit. Not to mention years and years of dump and pollution that we have caused. I was overwhelmed by this fact. I have my physical feet in the water, in fact, I am one with this water and in fact we are both polluted! I realized the greatness of the sea, how vast it is. In my awareness was this thought.. that it's getting destroyed quicker and quicker, but there is still Time! Water is so essential for all Life to continue here on Earth, yet we are polluting it! I was thinking; what can I do? I am so small in comparison to the ocean and to the world. But, I have a voice nonetheless and the ability to write something! Perhaps one day my writing skills can become so effective that I reach out to millions of people. Steps to change myself.. The water we drink is no longer pure, we make it "clean" but it's no longer "pure". The natives of this earth could drink out of any river. We humans have lost the instructions on how to live on earth, we are beings of this earth our responsibility is to uphold that harmony. Nature, care for it. We have become our worst nightmare. The day we wake up as a whole, in a system that benefits all, we can put full focus on purifying the water and so many other things that we depend on. Self Will go hand in hand with the particular evolution of Life. We are the same blood of Life, in and as Life. To serve the planet, that's what we are here to do, I believe.

Self-hONEsty.

Forgiving myself for what I have done, that I have allowed myself to be as bully as abuser of Life. I have become afraid of 'who I am' & angry with myself for being afraid of 'who I am'. Angry for disappointing myself. Afraid of what might be if I face me.. I forgive myself, that I have allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that there is something to be afraid of, or something to be angry about, with myself. I see, I am here, I exist as what is here.. in this I am able to correct myself, even perfect myself. That mind fuck is self-criticism, self judgement.. fear, its the self fearing that there is no self, but that's pointless. Fear is an illusion, at last. Anger, well when fear is absolutely deconstructed there won't be anymore anger, I believe. Let's see what happens with me, regardless this process is functioning indeed. Bliss may be, to be able to Be/Stand Here & support Life without any fear or posssession.

Conversation with mom.

I had a conversation today with my mom.. it started with me saying something about the actual matters on the planet and my concern about how things will unfold and how much time we have left to sort this mess out etc. I said that we have all created this mess, we are all creators and we have the power to destroy or create. I said we are behind most of if not all of the suffering on the planet. I said yet we also hold the solution and power to change all of that. I said everything is so fucked up, everything is clearly in reverse. My mom agreed completely. She said we are here to take care of this planet. Yes. We are here, thats why we are here to sort this mess out, there is no heaven.. there will be no heaven if there is no earth. They are one and the same. We are here to create Heaven on Earth, thats the only REAL. She said: Macro, micro. As above so below. My mom knows almost nothing about Desteni, (besides the little I have mentioned) but she has common sense and has read the bible and quite many books. From there a whole jar of interesting things opened! :)

She totally supports the equal money system. I told her that Desteni's plan is to get people the basics first and then start to deal with the rest of the mess. She said that's definitely the only way. She mentioned that she has always said something like: "Give everyone their daily bread first, then they will have the energy to work with their brains effectively and to express themselves." She went on that each and every human being on earth most have their basic front covered in order to function properly. Of course this is common sense!

Then I started talking about the coming generation picturing how it will be for them and what responsibilities we have to lead as an example.. also a concern came forth wondering if there even is that much time. All sorts of points came up the concern about raidiation, pollution, poverty, suffering well you name it!

We talked abit about self-forgiveness process, letting go and detachment etc. We talked about the frustration that can happen when one is too eager to get everyone in our circuits to understand etc.

Everyone is fucking dreaming!

She brought forth some good examples on how people are so programmed and brainwashed to not notice nature and life as it is here. I said something like.. "people will get sucker punch by nature and we wont even see it coming, it will hit hard!" Like it already has in many places. Then I went on rambling about the hierarchy system that exists to keep the mass under control. The top they are the evil cunning mind controllers that keep the mass under control, the bottom cannot do anything because they are dying everyday in huge numbers due to starvation. Then we.. the ones who live in the middle are the ones with the actual power in numbers, but, we are all fucking sleeping under a spell in a deep unconscious dream minding nothing else but our own self-interest..

We went into religion abit too. Not to much, there is not much to say besides have a good laugh or cry lol. ;)

We had a nice common sense talk. I have a good relationship with me mom and me dad. They are great support too, always have been. I can talk common sense with them. They are usually not afraid of seeing the reality of things and having actual conversations about the things that actually matter. I find it much easier to talk with them than to anyone else I know. I thought I'd share this, thank you for dropping by.

Be well, die well.

All Life has Value.

It is common sense from my point of view that ALL Life has value.. I look at trees with an equal value, I look at bugs, animals, plants, etc and I see Life. I see the beingness of every-thing, the value of every little creature. Although, I am still dealing with alot of pre-programmed fear towards Nature, I do realize and see directly that all of these Life forms are 'here' on this planet Earth and all have their natural functioning, except the human being. In fact we all share equal value as Life-being here.

It is only the human that is not following the natural order of things. It is only the human that is deliberately destroying Life. Every-thing, every other sentient and non-sentient being is upholding the harmony of Life.

It doesnt matter if one form is smaller or bigger than the other, more "intelligent" or less "intelligent". The origin of every living form is indeed one and the same. We are all from the Earth. We are all connected to the Earth, biologically, chemically, atomically you name it! Everything that exists in the universe exists here on earth, every-thing exists here in our physical Life. We are the physical Life expressing itself here.

So, when the Earth is corrupted, when the plants are being abused, when the animals are being tortured, when the bugs are being poisoned along with everything.. we are in fact destroying ourselves! When you look at anything, I do mean anything, you are in fact looking into a mirror reflection of yourself, 'who you are' as Life, as Nature. Meaning, that in 'essence' that animal IS you, that plant IS you, that bug IS you, that neighbour of yours IS you, the trees, the mountains, the sun, the sky, the dirt, well every-thing that exists, is equal and one to you as you. It is 'who you are' in 'essence'. Life here on planet Earth.

The Nature of Oneness is Equality.

Equality is Oneness, Oneness means Equality.

When saying, doing or acting as if we somehow are "above" Life we forget our true nature, our true origin as 'Life'. We forget the value of Life, which is Life itself.

We are not above Life, we are not below Life. We are Life. There is no other..

We must think we are so smart in our giant man made "techno-hives", but, the fact of the matter is that we are so fucking stupid! We have allowed an illusion (mind) to become so real that we "think" it is who and what we are. A mind that has been fed so much corrupted energy that it has become a "living" entity inside your brain! But, if we have a closer look it actually isn't real. However, our constant feeding the mind our attention and energy has made it so powerful that it takes control of everything and will eventually destroy its "host". In fact, allowing the mind to control leads to various different fuck ups.. such as abuse, madness and seperation, which is so apparent in our world. It is who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become!

In this we are destroying Life.. when we act as if our lives (which cannot be called living) are more valueble than any other life-form. We act as if our lives have more value than our neighbours even.

We live in fear and then we go to seek the "truth", all so that we can avoid what is 'here' as the actual matters of Life. We do not want the actual factual, we want stories and illusions to keep on dreaming and hoping for the better. We have created this mess and we do not want to take responsibility for what we have created, we make up all kinds of shit to blame and give away our responsibility as creators of this world.

Change only happens 'here & now', practically, through dealing with 'what is here' using Self willed action.

We give away our power when we blame something or someone else for our responsibility.

We (as mind) are afriad of losing our false power.. the power we think we have, the control we think we have.

 We create Fear, which in return creates Ego, and the Ego create more Fear.. and so we are stuck in an evil circle of our own making.

Surrender to Life.

Surrender to what is Here.

Surrender to 'who we actually are'.

Not who we believe or think we are.

Who we actually are.

 But, no.. we go and create all kinds of believes to avoid and deceive ourselves. We think that this belief is how things most be.. because we need comforts so we can continue to not see. We can make up anything simply so that we don't need to take a closer look at what is actually here. What we have actually created.

We accept and allow madness because it has become our identity, it has become so ingrained that we believe it is who we are, even though we know it is fucked up, atleast it feels familiar. We are afriad to "let go" and forgive ourselves and move into deeper waters. We (as mind) are afraid of the "unknown", which actually is the only thing that can be known, which is the only thing that is 'real'. Physical Life.

The breath of Life.

The eternal physical order.

Yet, we are destroying this order, we are destroying this existence, we are destroying ourselves because we fail to see the true value of Life. We fail to Stand equal and one as Life. We fail to "let go" and remove the mind fucked existence that has been allowed up til this point.

We must make a Stand and Change.

We must let the mind go.

We must release.

As so, to be able to move ourselves as Life and create what is best for all of existence equally.

All Life has value,

check it out!

Investigate yourself, Investigate Life. The moment is Here!

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Forgiveness

I have come to realize the great importance of forgiveness, self-forgiveness in particular. A shift took place in my Life when I had a Self-realization experience, this much was clear to me. To forgive and let go of past events. To forgive myself and others. When coming to the Desteni Community I noticed that there was a great focus on Self-Forgiveness. That made sense to me immediately. Without doubt. It just clicked in my being, Yes. But, I was to learn and see the whole 'idea' of Forgiveness from a whole new level of awareness. I learnt that there was so much to Forgive and let go of, so much to release from me that I was still holding on to. Now, forgiveness is seen from a much deeper perspective and is applied in a more effective way, moment to moment. I have begun the process of deconstructing all the unforgiven points within me. And I release and realize myself, step by step, everyday I apply the Forgiveness. I have learnt to make statements to myself as support me in the moment, when I see where I am abusing myself. These statements are said out loud and are powerful, I apply them effectively here. When "SF" is effectively applied = the contraction or emotion that existed in that moment disappears and is cleared out.

It is wonderful to be able to work with myself in this way... yet it is also seen that we are currently living such a hell that we have accepted and allowed ourselves into, we have created this. Therofore the need for Forgiveness is crucial. When this is done, there will come a time when forgiveness is no more. That would imply that we have shifted from living (as we are currently) "Hell on Earth" to living "Heaven on Earth". Because, when "Heaven on Earth" is 'actually' 'Here', as all as one as equals. Words like: "Self-Honesty", "Self-Forgiveness", "Self-Responsibility", "Oneness & Equality" will not be used that much anymore, because, 'they' will be 'lived' and the word 'natural' will have a whole new meaning. But, obviously we are pretty fucking far from it as of now, and most likely I will not live to see/experience the days of true world harmony. However, I am in this process contributing as one more vote for the bringing about of that "seed" of 'change' in this dimension, on planet Earth. So, in this 'Self-Forgiveness' is CRUCIAL for individual change, to Stand as Life.

It is the most important thing as of now...

When I forgive myself I contribute to stopping the madness of the world. Because, we are all One and every action I take effects the whole. 'I am' the 'whole'. When I forgive myself I release points of seperation, fear and abuse and this in return helps the universe in the process of purification.

This human physical body is equal to the universe, so I am responsible for what I keep within me! And, since the universe is going through a purification process. It is my duty to free my body from the 'enslavement' that I have allowed myself to exist in and as. Forgiveness is the Key to this liberation of Self! One by One, We Stand. Self-Forgiveness & Self-Honesty goes Hand in Hand!

Forgive yourself, and the prison set by your mind will slowly disappear.

The mind is the illusion, the physical 'you' is actual and real.

Forgive thy self everyday in every way and be here.

-M

What's the point?

Years ago I had an 'insight' of 'clarity' in a quite profound self-realization experience. Already, at that stage I understood that I had alot of work before me with myself, due to all the apparent brainwashing and conditioning that was/is programmed in me. But, I didnt have any proper tools to apply myself to live this change or realization. I had no sense of direction. I am glad to say that I have now found a way to apply myself effectively so that I can continue in process. Tools that offer practical solutions to my condition. Tools of purification where I release old "baggage" and remove any deliberate mind fuck up. I was for a long time identifying myself with my mind. No more!

The point of my 'purification' 'process' is to stand equal to 'Life'. The 'physical' life as this 'physical' 'universe' 'here' as 'existence' in and as the 'whole'. It means that in my realization the 'physical' 'universe' is what 'matters', the matter of things is my body which = the physical universe. I am 'here', I have always been 'here', as this body, as this 'physical' 'universe' fully 'aware' of myself as all as one as equal. Atleast, when I am not participating in any form of mind-system or personality demon. So, the process is to purify myself to live as my "true nature". To live and walk as this physical body in and as self-realization. A living WORD.

In this existence here on Earth we have allowed ourselves into self-abuse, slavery and seperation due to the mind-construction of thoughts, emotions, feelings and so on. We are living a 'projected' reality in our own mind of our own making, instead of living in the 'actual' REALity which is the physical universe as the body. We have come to believe that we are a mind-consciousness-system. We have allowed ourselves into deception by continuesly feeding this 'projected' mind-energy. We feed it with our fear/ego/self-interests. We feed it with our emotions. We feed it with our addictions. We feed it through participating in all the different forms of stimulations and energies that it needs.

The Mind will remain in control as superior as long as we stimulate the mind with this twisted energy, and then we will not see who we are as the original energy as the original source of Life. We will continue to live in a trance. This must Stop! And that is what this process is about! It is about Stopping the Mind as Self. No more self-abuse, fear or seperation. So, that the mind can be removed and fall into its original place as a mere instrument equal to the body-universe.

Self-perfection is a long and rough road I can see that, yet, I also see great enjoyments in coming events. There is no quick fix. I have started this to see this through... its what matters in my view. The 'core' of existence and the 'surface' of existence are the 'same', I am stopping myself to change the 'surface' to match the deepest 'core' of 'who I am' as existence itself equal to every living thing. Change the 'outer' and the 'inner' will automatically match the same 'principle' as they are essentially 'ONE'. Heaven on Earth is possible only then. This is what I have realized so far, and the tools provided to me by the Desteni Community have been of tremendous help. This is the 'process' of 'forgiveness' and the walking of the words of 'honesty' to 'Stand' as 'Life', in Oneness & Equality. I am forever grateful to be apart of the fascinating journey ahead. Freedom for ALL.

1+1+1... until this is dONE!

-M

No Turning Back Stop Here

I am in too deep... there is no turning back... not now, not ever. I must face what I have become in every moment of 'breath' so that I can reveal what is true within my self. I am in too deep; there is no way back for me... its a one way street leading to the 'death' of my personality and all that nonsense spirituality = "the transcendence of death". Everything has come to a Full Stop inside of me, so I can move myself accordingly and on the outside change to match the core of existence here. Finally, I can see where I am deceiving me ... where I have been and where I am being a false self-image. I can see who I am as the 'physical' and what I am still avoiding within me. I am breaking free!

As all as one as equal,

I eliminate the personality demon of my self interest, and little by little the 'process' accelerates ... 'Here' is the existence of what I have accepted and allowed my self to become in seperation and delusion. Such madness such self-abuse. 'Here' I stand as 'who I am' in and as 'Life' itself, and I am stopping myself, stopping self-abuse, stopping the addictive behaviour of constantly having to feed my mind with 'stimulation' to continue. My path leads 'me' to 'myself' as 'what is' which was always 'here', yet, it is now to be practiced carefully and words are to be lived as the principle of one and equal. Where we realize that the 'surface' and the 'core' is one and the same. We change the surface to match the inner core of existence as who we are. I am alive to live in self-honesty no more slavery!